Urgh.

I’m feeling rather gloomy. Rather gloomy and very teenagerish.

I was just going through a load of papers and throwing out the stuff that I won’t ever need again – which, in itself, is extremely therapeutic – and found an old biology test which I’d got like, an A or a B on. And Mr McIver had written on the top ‘You can do better than this.’ With a full stop. Had it been an exclamation mark it would actually have been okay, but it was a full stop, so it’s not. So now I keep thinking about my poor little Biology paper, all off by itself, being marked by someone and the someone thinking ‘Beh, she probably could have done better than this’. And it’s completely out of my hands. What a great big fail. And now that it’s done I genuinely don’t remember how hard I found it, aside from that weird question on E which everyone seemed to have just guessed the answers to.

Anyway, I’ve been doing chemistry basically non-stop for the past three days, and I did some practice papers and averaged 77%. Which is fine, I guess (and to be honest, I’ve got no idea what the grade boundaries were) but I’d just really like to do well in chemistry. With physics I actually don’t mind. But the point of all this science-related stuff is that at the moment I’m feeling pretty low.

This isn’t enhanced by the fact that my room has a load of crap on the floor.

I wish there were more hours in the day.

I need to work harder.

Urgh.